"Then TREAT ME like you do one another!" And here it was, the crux of it. Be it intentional or circumstantial that odd disconnect is there; he looked at them and how they are with one another and felt out of place. And he hated being made to feel as though he did not belong. He'd endured it all his life in Thedas- he had no patience to do so here. Not any longer. "When you two have your differences there isn't any fear in the argument! Even now you say you love me and you stand at arms length, even though I am unarmed and have sworn since the beginning that I will never hurt you. For even if I have laid my heart and loyalty at your feet you fear that which I am without even understanding the whole of it. I attempt to explain and you flinch. You laugh, You wave my life, my world off as something absurd or uncomfortable and I will not apologize any longer for the fact that my mere existence is nothing like the elves you have read in your fiction. I will not apologize for what was done to me and what it has made of me and I am tired of being made to feel like I should!"
The heart of the matter was being laid bare, under layers of flesh and bone, ignorance willful or otherwise and discomfort. He chipped away at all of that to flay and skin and crack until he could put it in something even they from their world might understand. "How can you feel such fear around me and claim I am loved. How can you look upon Isaac who has lived as I have lived and feel naught but contempt? We behave in different ways, he bitter on the surface but simply because I smile and laugh and mock what I have endured does not mean that rot doesn't lie within my bones as well. When I am tired, when I am weary and angry it feels as though these things are an inconvenience to you so yes, I feel as though I am a house elf. An ornament. Something treasured but kept upon a shelf for all that it is worth. I've had my troubles and you have not asked! I have had my screaming terrors in the night and neither of you have asked after them, be it out of fear or a lack of desire to know, it matters not. What matters is you have seen the cracks and rather than address them I feel as though you ignore them. I feel as though simply because I am an elf and I come from a world where there are dragons and dwarves and golems my problems are not considered worthwhile."
He took a slow, ragged breath and looked at them, one after the other. "I feel as though I am not taken seriously in this house. In any way save that which might cause you harm and that? That is a pain I am tired of enduring."
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The heart of the matter was being laid bare, under layers of flesh and bone, ignorance willful or otherwise and discomfort. He chipped away at all of that to flay and skin and crack until he could put it in something even they from their world might understand. "How can you feel such fear around me and claim I am loved. How can you look upon Isaac who has lived as I have lived and feel naught but contempt? We behave in different ways, he bitter on the surface but simply because I smile and laugh and mock what I have endured does not mean that rot doesn't lie within my bones as well. When I am tired, when I am weary and angry it feels as though these things are an inconvenience to you so yes, I feel as though I am a house elf. An ornament. Something treasured but kept upon a shelf for all that it is worth. I've had my troubles and you have not asked! I have had my screaming terrors in the night and neither of you have asked after them, be it out of fear or a lack of desire to know, it matters not. What matters is you have seen the cracks and rather than address them I feel as though you ignore them. I feel as though simply because I am an elf and I come from a world where there are dragons and dwarves and golems my problems are not considered worthwhile."
He took a slow, ragged breath and looked at them, one after the other. "I feel as though I am not taken seriously in this house. In any way save that which might cause you harm and that? That is a pain I am tired of enduring."