I'm just glad that the worst of my memories are pretty hazy.

[The pain of amputating without any proper medical technique was only a lesson in how more pain can be heaped on top of pain, and the limits of his own tolerance for it. Definitely something that he could do without, because knowing what his limits were in terms of pain... wasn't really applicable in reality. Not that he knew of.]

... I kinda feel like we might be talking about something I'm not on the same page as.